JOURNAL ENTRY 1:
I was reading the book Romeo and Juliet the other night and thought about how hard it would have been for Romeo and Juliet. Then the more I thought about it, my life isn’t a perfect fairytale either. Romeo and Juliet had to deal with loving each other but their families didn’t approve of their feelings for each other. Today I don’t have to worry about what my family thinks about me, more about what everyone else’s views on me are. I worry about who people think I am how people view the person I’m dating, who I hang out with at lunch and every day I have to deal with the worry of what I look like. I would never want people to view me as the gross, sloppy girl; nobody wants to be friends with the sloppy looking girl that smells like wet dog. Another thing that Romeo and Juliet are famous for in this play is for following their hearts even though it would not work out in the end. It was what they believed in and felt it was something they should do. Like falling in love with each other. I can relate to this because I have done many things before that I have thought would not end in my favour. But at the time I didn’t mind I really wanted to do it. Last year I was strictly told not to watch a certain movie, but being myself and thinking that I was mature enough to make this decision myself I watched that movie. Of course I thought I would have out smarted my parents because they weren’t home and I could put it back where I found it, but I was badly mistaken when they came home and went to watch the movie the credits were rolling and that showed that I had watched it, and because I got busted I had to deal with the consequence of being grounded for two months. I know my “tragedy” was nothing compared to Romeo and Juliet’s forbidden love story but I still think being a teenager is very difficult. From being socially acceptable to breaking the rules and having to deal with the consequences.
JOURNAL ENTRY 2:
Dear Diary,
All I have left now is you. I found out some very bad news that made my boyfriend break up with me, my friends not want to talk to me and my parents, well parent stop loving me. I’m sure that they will always love me but they sure have a tough way of showing it now. My mom has never been so disappointed in me in my life. I’m sure my dad is looking down on me and feeling the same guilt and betrayal that she feels from how I turned out. I was always the perfect child in their eyes good grades, respectful to everyone in my life, and I was always happy with a huge smile on my face no matter what. But after I met Toni everything changes about me. He was all I could think about; I started to reject doing my homework and skipped my classes all the time to hang out with him. I definitely would have never been the type of girl to ditch class but he was two years older than me and extremely cute, he knew how to make me laugh all the time and was always a blast to hang out with. I was starting to fall in love with Toni I just liked everything about him, I was so happy when I was around him. I loved how every day he could teach me something new that I never experienced or done before, from how to skateboard or what colours looked best with my eye colour. I even let Toni convince me that my best friend was weird and not worth my time any more. So I started to reject her calls and make plans with her then just ditch her because Toni told me it would be funny to see how pathetic she would look showing up to a movie and waiting out in the cold for me or waiting for 2 hours in a restaurant for me. I thought it was cruel humour but Toni said it was funny so I believed him. He was immature for his age but it was one of my favourite features that he had because he was always so much fun. She was my best friend and I will admit that she was weird, but so am I. She was always the greatest to cheer me up on a rainy day. But now she wants nothing to do with me, she is completely out of my life; like my father. But he wasn’t fortunate enough to make that decision himself. Just about 6 months ago he was hit by a drunk driver while he was walking home from the grocery store. When I found out that he had died I thought it was the end of the world. My family and I had the closest relationship ever there would have been nothing that could have broken our bond... nothing but death. But at that time I had Toni he seemed to be the only person that would hold me while I cried and who seemed like he wanted to help me feel better about this horrible situation. He started to introduce me to things I would have never experienced in my life if it wasn’t for him. Well I might have tried and done them but not this early in my life. He showed me that when I was down if I drank until I was unable to stand I would forget everything. I felt so free and happy for a change but after I got tired of the hangovers and started to realize that it made me feel ten times worse about the whole death situation days later I stopped drinking because I knew it wasn’t helping. That’s when he introduced me smoking, taking drugs and convinced me into having sex with him. Of course I went into the third one without fighting it because he told me that when you’re in love, you’re supposed to make love, and I was madly in love with Toni. From reading the book Romeo and Juliet I learned when you love someone you will do anything for that person no matter what the consequence is. Toni told me if I loved him I would have sex with him. Now 4 months later I have found out that I am pregnant with Toni’s twins. My mom doesn’t want anything to do with me, Toni broke up with me last week when I told him the bad news, and I don’t have a best friend anymore or a father. I have lost everything that means the most to me because of one stupid boy that I thought I was in love with but the fact is I am a 16 year old girl that doesn’t know much.
... The last one is NOT a true story!!!!!!
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